I hope this letter finds you well. I think I like starting off my Sunday's with good coffee, Damien Jurado, Wilco, and writing. It's quite good to process life and enjoy some time to breathe, especially in Denton. I love this city. I do miss Kharma, though.
The week at work ended up being more stressful than I thought it was going to be, but everything has it's plan, either way. The boss is back, so we'll see what this week holds. I've decided not to get all worked up about it. It's not in my hands and there's no point in worrying or stressing.
I hope I have that mentality tomorrow.
We looked for a puppy yesterday and I think we found the right one. The pet rescue place has to come and inspect our home to make sure it's dog-worthy and then we should be good to go! Right now her name is Catalina, but I think we're gonna go with Coco Crisp (Boston Red Sox outfielder).
I'm starting to feel okay about the Manny/Jason Bay trade now.
Somedays I really miss Boston. I'm glad I was able to be there last month.
I'm ready for the seasons to change. I think I love fall and spring the most now b/c I love waking up in the early mornings and feeling the cool, crisp air on my skin and smelling the smell of the seasons changing. Yes, I think it has a distinct smell.
I hope this letter finds you well. I like this morning. I'm in
Denton, sitting in front of Jupiter House, writing, reading, listening
to music. Just breathing. Feels damn good, actually. Missing Kharma
a bit tho.
Excited about church this morning. Don't know why. Sometimes just
don't feel like being there, but today, I think it'll be a good day.
I'm ready for the weather to cool off a bit. Not looking forward to
the 105 degree weather we're heading for this week. Work has been a
bit more stressful again, but my boss is gone this week, so I'm pretty
excited about that. Yesterday afternoon I mowed the lawn and just
looked at it for a bit. Our front lawn is nice and feels perfect
between your toes when you walk barefoot on it. Made me glad to have a
house and not an apartment anymore.
I picked up a 6 pack of dark oatmeal stout made by breckenridge brewing
co. I am pretty impressed. Had 2 last night, has a dark
chocolate/coffee finish that I like. I'd recommend if you like
stouts.
I really love my wife. I've been thinking that a lot lately. That's
probably why I've been picking on her a little more than normal. I
should probably just tell her :)
Today, it just feels good to be alive. It's been a long time since
I've made a cup of coffee last this long. Feels good to enjoy it, and
to praise God for making it.
How are you? I hope all of you are well. It's been a long time since I've written and I have lots of thoughts on life the last month or so. Things have not been easy by any means, but today is a good day. I think that's what I have to count on, living in this moment and enjoying it. I'm at Kacy's Mom's and we're upstairs alone while she is working on her lesson for tomorrow. It feels good to sit in front of a computer and not have to worry about work. Monday through Friday, I sit in front of a computer, stressed out of my mind, ready for the day to be done. I don't really like it.
3 months ago I was promoted to be a manager at my company. The opportunity has had its good times and tough times, but lately it's been mainly tough and unfruitful. The company I work for "proactively recruits critically–skilled
information technology and engineering consultants with the business
knowledge and hard–to–find technical expertise for clients." This is what I do. I also manage 6 people. I work on a base + commission basis and the commission is quite good depending on how many contractors you have working for you. I'm down to 2 and they are rolling off their projects in August and September, respectively. Over the last 2 weeks, I have had 2 offers for consultants by clients (basically the client pays my company an hourly sum, and we pay the contractor an hourly sum. I am paid based on the length of contract and the margin made.). But the 2 offers have fallen through b/c my company has been unable to work out official contracts with the client. It is pretty defeating b/c that part is out of my control - there's nothing I can do on the client contract side (we have account managers who work on this side - I am a recruiter). It is also quite defeating financially (means a loss of approx. $15,000 - the contracts were 6+ month contracts). Couple this with the fact that my company only loses around 10 contracts per year b/c they can't get contracts worked out on the client side and I have had 2 of those in the last 2 weeks. Quite frustrating. And there's nothing I can do about it. Just sucks when I'm doing my job correctly and it all falls apart.
Perhaps this is a reminder to trust in God. I'm sure it is, but it's pretty dang hard sometimes. The management part of the job hasn't been the most fun either, but they did send me to Boston last week for quarterly mgmt meetings. The meetings were not fun at all, but I was able to spend a couple extra days with a family I stayed with when I was there 5 years ago. Good times.
I went through a funk or small depression or whatnot for about a month after my grandpa died. I'm starting to come out of it now and want to be around people again, which is good. For awhile, I just wanted to stay in bed all day. I don't like losing people. It's not as if they're mine anyway, but I still don't enjoy it.
My lil bro and his new wife Abby are here this weekend, which has been a good thing. We had a great conversation this morning/afternoon and I wish they could stay a bit longer instead of heading back to Abilene tomorrow morning.
A line from this song called "This Road" has been used to carry me through the last few weeks. I'll just put the whole thing up.
All heavy laden acquainted with sorrow
May Christ in our marrow, carry us home
From alabaster come blessings of laughter
A fragrance of passion and joy from the truth
Grant the unbroken tears ever flowing
From hearts of contrition only for You
May sin never hold true that love never broke through
For God's mercy holds us and we are His own
This road that we travel, may it be the straight and narrow
God give us peace and grace from You, all the day
Shelter with fire, our voices we raise still higher
God give us peace and grace from You, all the day through
I have more to write, but I have to go. Much love.
